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So. It's been a really long time since I've written. School's out, for which I'm vastly thankful and I sort of wish it never had to start again. I finally got a job, working in a restaurant...haha, one of the jobs I said I didn't want. Today was the first day for me, and it wasn't so bad. The only part that was horrible was doing the dishes. People think getting their own old food out of their dishes is gross...they have no idea. It was sooo gross! I kept getting pressed to eat or drink afterward, and I just couldn't do it; I was so sickened. Now I'm so hungry I'm lightheaded, but my hands still smell like that horrible food even though I've scrubbed them a zillion times, and that brings back the nausea.

In other news, I've been a very bad girl. I haven't seriously worked on my novel for about a week, because I got hooked on this computer game called Meriani. It's an online, multi-player RPG, futuristic space themed. A couple of friends got me into it. I didn't think I'd like it, and I definitely didn't think I'd take it too seriously. I was rather...wrong. I'm going to try to add to my novel some this evening...or what's left of the day. I'm just so tired. I don't think too much of it is work-related; I only have a four-hour day there, or am supposed to. I was there a lot longer today just because. But it's not a good time mood-wise. I feel like I'm on the edge of one kind of hysteria or another all the time and there's absolutely no reason for it. I'm just tired and totally unfit for company. I need to write and don't want to do a darn thing. I couldn't play Meriani even if I wanted to. My character, Jade, is already fluttery, and I don't want to experience what happens when my bad mood transfers to her ever again. It was unpleasant. *sighs* I just want to sleep and I don't really want to wake up for a long time.

Yeah, that's my life lately. For the record, most of summer has been awesome. But I can't talk about it yet.